Monday, January 26, 2009
I am taking a stand against the negative. Today was a good day. Work is exhausting but extremely gratifying, I'm making new friends but keeping the old, and the parental relationship continues to grow and flourish to something of real comfort. Then came the hiccup...and there went my mood. I sat with it for an hour, allowing the feeling of disappointment to sink in a bit. Then, I remembered all the great around which my life revolves. My brilliant, driven friends and loved ones, my beautiful and powerful mother, my supportive family, this breathtaking city, a future illuminated in wonder and hope. The negative news that I received didn't hold even the tiniest of candles to the rest of my wonderful story, and here I was letting it bog me down.
So tonight, I will sleep dreaming of all of the good, all of the unknown, and none of the petty bad. I am a strong believer in things happening for worthwhile reasons and the reality that life isn't perfect. With that in mind, I will think of the imperfect, but utterly fabulous, forces that surround me. What could be bad? Certainly not this little life of mine.
Good night moon.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Fast forward to this week. I arrived in New York at the end of last month and have been searching the Internet desperately for the answer to my prayers - the beloved job. I wrote heartfelt cover letters, critiqued my resume to death, and crossed fingers and toes under the covers at night. I had spent the fall giving myself mini pep talks. "You are intelligent. You are worthy. I believe in you. Good come to those who deserve it." And then...nothing. After spending 12 hours feeling depressed, so confused and lacking self confidence, I woke up with a new outlook. I was applying to every job that fit in my qualifications box. If it asked for a "self starter with strong work ethic and the ability to multi task, preferably a public relations or communications major" I was all over it. What I wasn't all over was the reality on hand. Was I really prepared to take a job, just because I matched the description and qualifications? I realized that as much as I wanted a steady salary, the freedom to stand on my own two feet, and the opportunity to put these 18 years of schooling to the test, I wasn't ready to commit. Best part? I don't need to.
I start a temporary job tomorrow that will pay me in experience, networking, and of course, cold hard cash. After that, I'll be on to conquer another area of interest, an internship or another short term job. I have found fellowship and training programs in fields that I am passionate about, subjects that I yearn to learn more from. I'm excited to take life one step at a time and see where it takes me. Ironically enough, the L.A. friend called me tonight to tell me that she just got a full time job. And I couldn't be happier for both of us. How's that for a reverse mirror?
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Recessionista: A person who is able to stick to a tight budget while still managing to dress stylishly.
As in...She's superstylish, always able to buy a round of drinks and still seems to be wearing a new outfit every time you see her. She's a recessionista, that New York marvel who's a magnet for a good deal. And in this economy, she's got a lot to teach us.
In times such as these, being called a "recessionista" should be taken as the best of compliments. While I'll be the first to wish to support couture, there are ways to do so without breaking the piggy bank or making it impossible to pay next month's rent. Many designers are catching on to the trend too...launching contemporary lines and designing for Target and H&M. The idea of producing great clothes in great fabrics for the consumer audience is spreading, as it means more exposure for a lesser price, without losing any caliber.
Until the economy goes on the upswing, is it environmentally and financially friendly to stick to cheap, consignment or already hanging in the closet. Because after all, if we're such fashionistas, shouldn't we be able to put together a this season look with last season's pieces? I thought so.